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2011

Should be updating more since its the holidays but what the heck... Been so lazy to update. But I still see people looking into my blog once in a while, so "Thank You" from the bottom of my heart for your continuous support.

It's already 2011! Can you imagine that? I am now a degree holder upon graduating from The University of Melbourne, though it is not official because I haven't gone to the ceremony. OH WELL! Many stories and pictures to share with you for this new year but then like I said. Lazy me!

Anyway, in conjunction with the coming Chinese New Year, I came up with some CNY bunnies since it's my year, the year of the Rabbit! Woots!

Happy Soon to be Chinese New Year yo!

Rabbits are too cute to be made into fearsome cartoons. I feel that this cartoon by me is just to tame... Oh well... Gonna be a peaceful year then.. Wait till the coming post... Lets see, 2 weddings and trip to Singapore... :P

The month of October....

Its spring... Hallelujah! Shout for joy! Wohooo.... 

The flowers are all so pretty....

They all started to bloom.... But what is that behind the beautiful flowers? Woo... Looks like a beautiful building...

*Looks at calender*

11th November......

Exam hall venue: Wilson hall

17th November

Exam hall venue: Royal Exhibition Building

This beautiful building is where we are going to have our final paper to graduate for degree...... Arghhhh.........

And the irony is that the paper which I am going to sit for is the "Formative History of Architecture".

What an appropriate venue....

SPRING SPRING SPRING!!!

Supposedly the season for love... But I doubt it now... LOL!

Sacrifices

Into the world we run,

What is ahead,

We do not know.

Young and innocent we were to think the world was all that.

3 years in the world and we are all beginning to ask ourselves.

Is this what we really want?

Is this what we want to live for?

Is this all worth the sacrifice.

Yep, that is what I have been thinking lately. Don't ask me why but something tells me that it is. Four years ago, I was in F5 worrying about which course I am going to take. 1 year in foundation year and 3 years in getting my diploma of Architecture later, I am beginning to question myself. Is it really worth the sacrifice? Burying myself in work and stress and ignoring the fact that I have friends outside of what I call my future is slowly taking its toll on me. I am suddenly feeling guilty for abandoning my friends from MUFY for 3 years and my excuse was always because I am busy. What will I do when I go overseas? Will I then forget those who were with me and by me for the past 3 years in college as I embark the challenge of the University?

As I am now sitting in front of my computer trying hard to finish my final assignment for my diploma, I am asking myself if it is all worth it. Another 3 years or so to go buddy. You willing to go the distance. I remember in my first year, a lecturer asked us, "You ready to throw away your social life? Be prepared to throw it away." 1+3 years in college, 1 failed relationship, 6 semesters of on the edge of insanity, 1 life threatening illness and many lost time.... That was my welcome to the world. Ask me if the sacrifices was all worth it, I will tell you now. Ask me in another 3 years. Then I will tell you the answer. Life is indeed a climb which we all have to face. I am way beyond my childhood years and finally realizing that life is not just 1, 2, 3... Its chaotic and ugly but yet beautiful in many ways.....

Confusing post? Well, thats how confusing life is.... Life, Love and Lost... Thats the story of life.

ARGHHHH!!!!

Tough week tough week! Design rejected and redesigning is needed... The fire for studio seems to be extinguished this semester. Ahhhh.. I just have to cool down. Yea, the song helps... Relax and think.. Wish me luck.....

Push-Matchbox 20

She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever been really loved
By hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's gonna give
And I'm a little bit angry, well

This ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you around
You don't owe me, we might change
Yeah we just might feel good

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah I will, I will

Well I will

She said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
Like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is gonna hurt ya
And I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
You couldn't stand to be near me
When my face don't seem to want to shine
'cuz It's a little bit dirty well

Don't just stand there, say nice things to me
I've been cheated I've been wronged you,
And you don't know me, I can't change
I won't do anything at all

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted, yeah I will, I will

Oh but don't bowl me over
Just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so crazy, crazy
Don't rush this baby, don't rush this Baby, baby

(Chorus)
I wanna push you around, well I will, well I will
I wanna push you down, well I will, well I will
I wanna take you for granted, yeah, yeah, yeah
I wanna take you, take you, yeah, well I will, I will, I will, I will
I will, I will, I will, Yeah, yeah, push you around,
I'll drag you down, I wanna push you around
Well I will

Sorry about the lack of updates. Been really busy and I have no inspiration to post anything. So enjoy the music. Cheers.

One bright and hot sunny day....

Nice day to have a cup of Lycee Paradise... Love the colours.

One more day and back to a world of stress and work. *sighs*
Never like leaving home!

My love is going to the hospital (again)

Damn, when I thought I can enjoy my holidays this holiday by going out and take photos with my beloved camera, it just broke down (literally) on me unexpectedly and needs to go to the hospital again...

My heart is so broken... Why did this happen to me??

DAMN!!

its "Beautiful"

Chorus:
In my shoes, just to see
What its like, to be me
Ill be you, lets trade shoes
Just to see what id be like
To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside eachothers minds
Just to see what we'd find
Look at shit through eachothers eyes
Don't let them say you aint beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you
Dont matter saying you aint beautiful
They can all get fucked just stay true to you

Am back in Sibu and enjoying myself on the first day back. Had lunch and had an amazing 3 hours nap; no worries on due dates and idea blocks. All I can think about now is meeting up with friends and chilling with my family. Am so gonna walk around town to look for inspiration for my final project. Friends, Chilling, Family... Who can ask for more? Well, got my condition letter from Melbourne University, Deakin University and University of Tazmania.... And a sudden dejavu hits.. Leaving further and further from home......

Love... Love... Love....

Well, sort of rummaged through some old photos of the past and found this picture. It was taken by me 2 months before entering architecture schoolback in 2007 and one month before ever starting my first relationship. Ahh.. That sounds interesting right? Well, not going into that.

The first time I ever wrote about this topic was when I was still new at it. After being through it, I have learnt and confirmed that LOVE is indeed blind, LOVE makes you careless, LOVE changes people; basically LOVE did many things. LOVE makes you do crazy things as well. LOVE changes people's personalities and character. It also teaches you that well, sometimes it is pretty short unless you found the one who is really meant to be.

LOVE teaches you to appreciate those around you and to be there for them every step of the way. LOVE makes you do things which you won't normally do for a person. Everything bout LOVE sound so great right? But in reality, LOVE hurts the heart, LOVE breaks the heart and LOVE generates jealousy and many more bad stuff. So in a way LOVE can suck big time.

AND THAT IS WHY,

We have LOVE songs and breakup songs in the world people..

LOVE gives us many things to write about.

Just like this random post.

Happy Holidays! WOhoo.....

What if?

What if everything you own or you love has been taken away from you? How would you feel?

What if one day, you feel that the whole world is against you? What would you do?

What if the only person you have loved cheated on you in the worst possible way?

What if one day, you found out you have cancer?

What if one day, you found out someone you love is dying of cancer?

What if one day, after all the success you have dissapears?

What if one day, you find yourself on the streets beeging for money?

What if one day, you just lost yourself?

What if the world ends today? Now?

What if everything you expect doesn't come through?

What if?

*currently, my mind is spinning with questions which somehow, I still can't find the answers to. Why do I worry so much about things which has not happened? Why am I bottling up such pointless burdens upon myself? Hiding it in the shadows and away from the world. The questions of "what if?". What if these all end here today? That I am no longer here, that I no longer exist. I shall be a mere memory and mere imgage of the past. A deep illusion where once you are in, you can never get out. Running deep in thought, "Yes, I am studying to be an architect now. What next?" How am I going to make it all worth it and not pointless beyond pointless? What am I saying? Dillusions.....

My life today... My thoughts....

This is the thought which has been lingering in my mind these few days. My migraines are back and all I feel like doing is sleep but the thing is, every time I close my eyes I dream of datelines.

Oh boy......

Merdeka? Apa tu?

Well, it is not 31st August anymore so I guess I shall say a belated Happy Independence Day to all Malaysians though I don't really believe in the 31st thing. I am a Sarawakian so yea, independence day for my state is on the 16th September so yea, wait till then.

I have to say this so hear me out:

I am not patriotic, but I love my country. I love the peace we have but I hate the idiots who caused racial tension in this country. I love Sarawak because I guess, I seldom see any racial discrimination there unlike staying in K.L. and reading the news of the people wanting to tear down temples. I love it in Sarawak because its one of the states which accepts all religion and allow any religion to build their religious places.
I love this beautiful land but don't get me wrong, I hate staying here because of the idiots we have for politicians. It is those who runs the country who is creating so much chaos. Corruption beyond corruption, no matter the race. Drama after drama. Damn, give it a rest already! Which fucking university did all of you politicians graduate in anyway? So uncivilized. You are driving the young generation out of this country due to you idiot-ism. One reason I won't want to vote is because I don't trust in any political parties. BN, DAP, PKR, PAS-fuck you all la! DEMOCRACY, DEMOCRACY is all you can say but all I see is old farts running around yelling like children blaming each other for their idiot-ism.
Lets not forget about the media.... What happened to honesty in reporting the news. Reading your articles just make me want to puke. I can sense the lies in it. All you are after is a good story, dramatize every story you got to get readers. SHAME ON YOU!

We are such a lovely country, but due to the idiots in Parliament, the public transport sucks, the road sucks, police are all corrupt, there is racial tensions, all the local talents are flying away, never wanting to come back due to the unrest. Time to open your eyes to reality!

I just realized that the meaning of the Merdeka we used to know is long gone. I have lost the feeling of being proud of gaining independence from England... Something is so wrong here. But oh well. Happy Merdeka people!

P.s. I love this post which one of the lecturers put up. *click* hope it can be opened.

Yawns

Sweet cherries on a hot sunny day. How enjoying..

Today is a great day. It rained, weather is cold and is the perfect condition to sleep in. No more worries (who am I kidding?) , time to sleep in peace. Something I haven't got to do in a while. Go figure.... I.P. is over for this week, eco-mimicry and Super Bike tourism study is next... But first, to refresh my mind for a better tomorrow. Planning to go down to Dataran Merdeka for independence day. Anyone knows if they changed the venue to Putrajaya or is it still at Dataran Merdeka? Who wants to join me for a colourful Independence Photography shootout... Message me here... 5 day week end. I am soooooo happy.....

Crazier - Taylor Swift

I've never gone with the wind
Just let it flow
Let it take me where it wants to go
Til' you opened the door
And there's so much more
I'd never seen it before
I was tryin' to fly but I couldn't find wings
But you came along and changed everything

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me Crazier Crazier Crazier

I watched from a distance as you
Made life your own
Every sky was your own kind of blue
And I wanted to know how that would feel
And you made it so real
You showed me something that I couldn't see
You opened my eyes and you made me believe

You lift my my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm falling and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier

Ohhhh

Baby you showed me what livin' is for
I don't wanna hide anymore
Oh Ohh

You lift my feet off the ground
You spin me around
You make me crazier crazier
Feels like I'm fallin and I
I'm lost in your eyes
You make me crazier crazier crazier
Crazier Crazier

What is Crazy is actually me watching "The Hannah Montana Movie" to find this song which I fell in love with. One of my favourite genre of music is country western and well, Taylor Swift is one the best there is at the moment. I love the lyrics. Some odd stuff is happening around me and all I got to say is......

"I feel bad for you for needing affirmation like that. It's no longer my problem. You resolve it yourself."

It is a crazy start to a beautiful week.

Me and my polodrized moments is back....

Finally got the programme to work by installing the new Poladroid so I am sort of back in business. Not sure if it is going to continue as a daily thing so lets just see how the schedule goes, shall we.

Went on a site visit/analysis on Saturday with the Studio (bridge) gang at Jalan Raja Chulan. How convenient, the lecturers for Studio 4 and I.P. chose the same area for the final project. Not the same site, just the same area.

The current site for Studio 4 is located near Chulan Square and Pavillion is right at the end of the street. Good aye? Can look for excuses to go down to the city. "I have to go analyse site." Actually, just hanging around Pavillion and doing nothing. Just kidding la. I am not the type who goes shopping or hang around doing nothing.

Reading the compass.... North of the site... Facing.....

A contruction site.

Which is next to the LTAT which stands for the Lembaga Tabung Angkatan Tentera. Even the military needs a piggy bank.. Such a big one too.

Well, after the analysis, we headed for Pavillion for lunch and while we were walking, we saw this artist whose art are all done in colour pencils.

Can you believe this was done using "LUNA" colour pencils?

Well, you have to see it yourselves.

The artist's name is Hasren Ismail a.k.a. Uneh (unik+aneh= Unique and odd/weird-in English) and is known for using colour pencils for his art work. Currently, he is known as the King of Colour Pencils in Malaysia. For me, I love his abstract art done with Colour Pencils. For an A1 piece, it will take him approx. 3 working days and the quality.. Well, you have to see it for yourselves during his exhibition at the National Art gallery some time in October, which is after Raya. If you are an art enthusiast and wish to view his art, you can check it out on his webpage, www.myspace.com/uneh or www.facebook.com/uneh.hasren for more details.

He talked to us for quite a bit on his research and his life work. He is actually a graduate in librarian sciences but he decided to go full time in art. Good on you man. Well, please do support him at his next exhibition. I know I will try my best to go if my schedule is good.

Jasmines..... I think... Nice smelling flower I found by the streets of K.L. Lovely isn't it?

And yes, I plucked it because it was just too lovely.

Oh yea... Around the area... there are lots of nice car... And this was one of them. Wooooooooo.....

Lets see where the future takes me...

No Surprise~Chris Daughtry

I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder, I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrappin' this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

Chorus
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why

Chorus
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say

Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God knows we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no,
As no surprise

If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this
It's easier to see the reason why

Chorus
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
(stayed till today)
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise

Crazy about Chris Daughtry songs. It somehows speaks to the heart. HAHA...

My life after training....

First off, what do you think about my new header? Used my spare time to create a new one. Yes, this blog is about my love, my art and my life...

Its been a week since I finished my training but I don't seem to be taking a lot of photos huh? The weather in Sibu is so hot that every time I think of going out, I dread the heat. So far, I went back to my Secondary school to look for some of my former-teachers and to walk around in school. I don't think you want to see pictures of my school. Well, I also went to visit Pastor Lisa at Zion Methodist church. Its the first time I visited the current church she is working at.

What I love about Sibu's architecture is that we have a whole range of architecture dealing with religious places besides the mosque unlike living in K.L. and most of the new churches are in commercial buildings like hotels or used-to-be cinemas and etc. There is something about traditional churches which are so unique huh?

This is Zion Methodist Church... Location: somewhere at Jalan Merdeka.


What I love about it?: The roof and the window.
Bad thing about the design?: It leaks. HAHA.

Good news is... I am going on a photography hunt next week. One of the destination is going into the forest to snap pictures of pitcher plants. Its very rare.. So hopefully we can still find it. Any one in town and is interested in going for this photography hunting, please contact me through the comment box or if you know my email, email me. Time and day is not confirmed yet until the photographer, Philip @ http://rubberseeds.blogspot.com/ confirms with me. So, contact me a.s.a.p. if you are interested. Oh yea, another thing I am hooked on after my training...

This Korean band called Girls Generation... My gosh.. SO cutee.... New aim... Look for a Korean Girlfriend.. Anyone know some? Intro... HAHA....

HOLIDAYS!!!!