Love... Love... Love....

Well, sort of rummaged through some old photos of the past and found this picture. It was taken by me 2 months before entering architecture schoolback in 2007 and one month before ever starting my first relationship. Ahh.. That sounds interesting right? Well, not going into that.

The first time I ever wrote about this topic was when I was still new at it. After being through it, I have learnt and confirmed that LOVE is indeed blind, LOVE makes you careless, LOVE changes people; basically LOVE did many things. LOVE makes you do crazy things as well. LOVE changes people's personalities and character. It also teaches you that well, sometimes it is pretty short unless you found the one who is really meant to be.

LOVE teaches you to appreciate those around you and to be there for them every step of the way. LOVE makes you do things which you won't normally do for a person. Everything bout LOVE sound so great right? But in reality, LOVE hurts the heart, LOVE breaks the heart and LOVE generates jealousy and many more bad stuff. So in a way LOVE can suck big time.

AND THAT IS WHY,

We have LOVE songs and breakup songs in the world people..

LOVE gives us many things to write about.

Just like this random post.

Happy Holidays! WOhoo.....

Byul By Youme

Korean Version:

Param-kyori cha-ngeu-rheun-teul-go
Nae kiman-han cha-gun naye bang wi-ro
Arum-taun-ke pyul-bit-durun
Kaduk chae-wo-chuneyo
Sel-su-obshi manhunt pyul-tu-reun
Ji-chyo-in-nun na-reul oru-man-chimyo
Nae mam-soge katok tamun
Nun-mul tak-ka shu-neyo

Man-hyi apa-ha-ji-ma
Nal kkung anun-chae
Tado-kyojumyo chal-jara
Wero-hae ju-neyo

Goshi mo-thal man-kum
Hime gyowa apa-wado
Nun-muri a-peul kar-yowado
Gatchi-mothan nae sarang apedo
Na usul-lae-yu
Cham-shira-do gyote
Haeng-bo-khaet-don giok-turul
Ga-sume gan-ji-khal-kkeyo
Tunune sunoh-a-jin
Cho pyol-deul-cho-rom yongwonhi

Kkumul kku-deut taka-uneyo
Yu-nu-nhi-do balkun naye byol hana
Nunbu-shi-mi panjja-gimyo
Okkae-wiro naer-yo-wa

Jakku sulpo-hajima
Son kkong chabun-chae
Nal manchyo-jumyo
Tta-seu-hi nal kamssa-shu-neyo

Goshi mo-thal man-kum
Hime gyowa apa-wado
Nun-muri a-peul kar-yowado
Gatchi-mothan nae sarang apedo
Na usul-lae-yu
Cham-shira-do gyote
Haeng-bo-khaet-don giok-turul
Ga-seum-soge gan-chikhal-kke-yo
Tunune sunoh-ajin
Cho pyol-deul-chorom ooohhhh

Na onul-manun anu-royu
Nun-muri kadokchowado
Chogi cho byol-deul-chorom
Na u-seul-lae-yo ooohhhh
Haeng-bokhaet-don giok-modu
Ga-sume gan-ji-khal-kkeyo
Tunune sunoh-a-jin
Cho pyon-deul-cho-rom
Yongwonhi

English Translation:

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever.

Well, I am back in K.L. for my final semester and my first class which starts at 8 a.m. later and here I am listening to Korean music. This song is from the Korean movie "200 Pound Beauty". What a beautiful song...

Well, yawns... I can't be late for the first studio class...... Ciaoz....

The forgotten memories....

He has enough of all this talk of moving on and getting on with his life. Its easier said than done. Lying on his bed, he keeps thinking of what he had done to deserve this. To deserve such coldness and hatred. His life is not perfect. Its never always up as many thinks but there are just some down times which he hides from the world. Its been so long since he broke up with the one he loved. But why can't he just move on? Why is he holding back with all the memories when he knows he can never get her back. He feels like a rose with all its petals thorn off from its stem. His soul is weak, his feelings fragile. On the outside, he seems so okay, but deep inside, he is just broken. Broken into so many pieces. Healing is hard, it takes time for the healing to begin, needless to say how long it will take for it to heal.

Looking back at his memories of himself and her, he wishes he could go back in time, to erase all these memories. No, he does not want to change it to make it better because he knows it will only hurt him the more. Problems will always arise. He just wants to forget. Erase all the memory of loving someone, erase all the fun memories of him and her, erase all those arguments they had. He feels bad of the things he said and the things she said to him. They were once so in love. Thinking about marriage and children and a future together. It is all lost now. Those words said are all pointless, meaningless.

He resorts to busying himself with life. To get away from the memories of him and her. But how can he? The memories keep haunting him when he tries to close his eyes at night, when is free from all work. He is running in circles. Every time he thinks he has overcome the obstacles of these problems, it keeps creeping back to his heart. It hurts, everyone know. Everyone seems to know. But he guesses they all don't know how he feels until they face it themselves.

Its a lesson and an experience he just have to go through. It might take years or months. Who knows. Maybe till he finds someone to love. He knows who love him most. He knows his family is there for him. He apologizes to his family for being like this. An emotional wreak. Who says guys are insensitive and emotionless?

Step by step he walks into darkness. But someone is pulling him out all the time. He is thankful to His heavenly father for loving him, for guiding him. But he is so rebellious, ignoring the lessons and the advices His Heavenly Father has sent to him. He tries to be strong, but he is not. So not strong. He can't continue on like this. He needs to get rid of his sinful and rebellious ways.

"Time to listen, Time to learn, Time to move on my son" His Heavenly Father calls out. "Its not love, if you can't let go of what you hold most dear"

He is going to try. Trying to be positive. He would like to apologize to the one he once loved for this one last time:" Sorry for the things said and done. No matter who is at fault. I just want to say I am sorry. Forgive me if you can. And may you have a great life. I'm sorry."

He is moving on. Walking into a brighter tomorrow. He is pursuing his bright future.

It is going to be bright...

By Aaron

p.s. Sorry for such an emo post. Just felt like writing it. :)

A story worth telling...

One day I decided to quit...
quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit
my life. I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"

His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.

"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good
care of them. I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor. Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on
the bamboo." He said.

"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit. In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.

"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."

He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots". "I would not quit on the bamboo.
I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."
He said.
"The bamboo had a different Purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.
"You will rise high"

"How high should I rise?" I asked.

"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.

"As high as it can?" I questioned.

"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."

I left the forest and brought back this story.
I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you. Never, Never, Never Give up. For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.
Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is, tell the problem how Great the Lord is!
Heavens door open this morning, God asked me... My CHILD... what can I do for you?" and I said "Daddy please protect and bless the one reading this story.

P.s.: Darren, the bamboo in this story, its not Y.C.